Emoetry - Losing "It"

Where has it all gone?
Where is my inspiration?
Has it left my every bone?
Poetry is no longer in motion,

Every rhyme feels awkward,
Even wrong words seem to rhyme,
Right words leave my mind unheard,
I need to write something sublime,

But the world has turned gray,
No longer in brilliant technicolor,
Life is now a sickening decay,
Devoid of its splendor,

Everyday is undeniably chaotic,
Everyone is frustratingly frantic,
Life is leaving me hectic,
And in a constant state of panic,

I wish I could find it once more,
The will to write; to inspire,
To stop boredom from its core,
To write a poem which I admire,

Are you lost my dear friend?
Please find your way back home,
Stay in my mind till time ends,
With you I'll write a poetic tome.

Emoetry - 17 Days

I need to know,
Are you missing me?
As I'm missing your glow,
Like the sun rising from the sea,

I need to ask,
Are you thinking about me?
Thoughts of you are all I see,
Daily from dawn till dusk,

I need to find out,
Are you dreaming of me?
As you're all I dream about,
Dreams about you set me free,

Seventeen days away from you,
Seems like eternity,
Seventeen days without you,
Has driven me close to insanity,

I feel your presence,
But it doesn't help much,
I hate your absence,
I need you here to hold and touch,

I need to see your beautiful face,
Especially with that sweet smile,
You've made me found my place,
Will you let me stay awhile?

I love staring into your hazel eyes,
Drowning in them feels like heaven,
You given me clear blue skies,
Will you speak those words unspoken?

I wish to feel your skin on mine,
Feeling the warmth of your body,
Its warmer than burning pine,
Will you hold on to me tightly?

I quiver when I kiss your lips,
They're soft and sweet,
You've got me at your finger tips,
Will you say I swept you off your feet?

I miss the scent of your skin,
And how it entices my senses,
You've cleansed me of every sin,
Will you still love me when time passes?

Seventeen days are flying by,
I'm missing you more everyday,
There's no need to ask why,
As I've fallen for you in every way,

Seventeen days are killing me,
I'm wondering how to tell you this,
I'm dying but I don't want you to see,
As being with you would be my final wish,

I'm always thinking of you,
I'll always be with you,
I'll be waiting for you,
I love you.

Emoetry - Missing Enigma of Love

The moon and stars shine,
Brightly,
The rain starts falling,
Heavily,
I watch you sleeping,
Peacefully,
I smile knowing you're mine,
Happily,

I move the hair covering your face,
Slowly,
I kiss your sweet lips,
Gently,
It feels like I've found my place,
Finally,
Your presence is what I miss,
Easily,

I whisper I love you,
Softly,
I hold onto your hand,
Tightly,
I love how you do everything,
Gracefully,
I'll be with you till the end,
Surely,

I leave the room,
Silently,
Not wanting to wake you,
Abruptly,
You saved me from my doom,
Unexpectedly,
I've never felt a love so true,
Wholeheartedly,

I make my way to the roof,
Anxiously,
I'm soaking wet due to the rain,
Refreshingly,
Your love is proof,
Undeniably,
That a heart can heal from pain,
Magically,

I fell asleep,
Rapidly,
The rain still falls,
Heavily,
It hides my tears as I weep,
Unknowingly,
I didn't hear your calls,
Worriedly,

You found me,
Knowingly,
You hugged me,
Lovingly,
You woke me,
Gently,
You kissed me,
Tenderly,

We sat there,
Stoically,
Looking at the sky,
Dreamily,
Which was now clear,
Wondrously,
Time just flew by,
Rapidly,

You let out a yawn,
Sleepily,
You laid your head on my shoulder,
Lazily,
I wanted to stay till dawn,
Wishfully,
I wanted to stay by your side forever,
Truthfully,

I carried you back to bed,
Grudgingly,
I had to leave as dawn came,
Sadly,
I kissed your forehead,
Yearningly,
My love for you will stay the same,
Definitely,

I'm sorry I left you alone,
Lonely,
I'm sorry I didn't say goodbye,
Apologetically,
I'm sorry I left things undone,
Messily,
I'm sorry I had to die,
Please forgive me.

Emoetry - Vicious Cycle

You found me,
Heard my cries,
You freed me,
Cutting the ties,
You healed me,
From these lies,
You kissed me,
I felt the skies,
You hugged me,
Stopped my sighs,
You carried me,
Helping me rise,
You left me,
My soul dies,
You killed me,
No more tries,

I needed you,
Not anymore,
I wanted you,
Feelings of yore,
I carried you,
Made me sore,
I loved you,
Ancient lore,
I despise you,
To the core,
I hate you,
From every pore,
I killed you,
With a gore,
I buried you,
Your heart I tore.

Emoetry - Night Fright

I've been losing sleep lately,
When I close my eyes,
I see a vision of you clearly,
The vision reminds me of your lies,

Thoughts of you used to put me to sleep,
Now they just haunt my dreams,
Thoughts of you now seep,
Like toxic into beautiful streams,

These thoughts used to take away my pain,
Away from my heart and my mind,
Now the pain starts all over again,
Its like you just hit "Rewind",

The dream has turned into a nightmare,
Where you plucked out my heart,
And crushed it without a care,
Then threw it at the wall like a dart,

Paranoid and schizophrenic,
I awaken with cold sweat while shaking,
I don't know where I'm heading,
Depression Lane Or Village Psychotic,

You left me frail and broken,
It feels like I've lost my soul,
So many things left unspoken,
It was you that kept me whole,

Memories of you crowd my every thought,
Causing my emotions to go haywire,
I'd feel better if I were set on fire,
I'm sure it'll stop the pain you brought,

I become claustrophobic in my room,
The walls close in on me,
Spikes replace where the walls used to be,
Closing in; sealing my fate with doom,

I finally know the feeling of being used,
This nightmare leaves me dazed and confused,
Its now hard for me to go to bed,
Quite frankly; I'd rather wake up dead.

Emoetry - Straight Edged Rage

Its time I break out from this cage,
I won't hold back this bestial rage,
Its time I lived life on the edge,
I'm taking a leap off this ledge,
Its adrenaline I don't need a gauge,
I'm tearing up the rules page by page,

I'm done sitting by the sideline,
I've had enough of letting time flyby,
I'm about to explode like a land mine,
No longer do rules or regulations apply,
I ain't going to pay my dues or fine,
I'll leave this all behind high and dry,

I've had enough of crawling in this pit,
I've had enough of taking all this shit,
No longer will I stand while others sit,
I'll tear these restrains apart bit by bit,
I'll be on life like an assassin on a hit,
Suicide is something I wouldn't commit,

I don't live for spirits or beers,
I don't need any substances,
I have other ways of killing my fears,
And strengthening my defences,
No longer will I shed bloody tears,
I'll leap over these walls and fences,

I'm like a freight train,
Crashing through every obstacle,
I no longer feel pain,
I'm close to being maniacle,
I've everything to lose nothing to gain,
But I'm still not wishing for a miracle,

I've been living a lie,
It was never the best thing for me,
I could have just laid down and die,
But that was never meant to be,
I just found a way to untie,
These leashes; now I'm breaking free,

My body may be aching,
My wounds might still be bleeding,
It feels like I'll never stop falling,
But my scars are healing,
I embrace this hated feeling,
Nothing will stop my heart from beating,

Here's what I'm trying to say,
I'm finally doing things my way,
Nothing will make me sway,
I was bound to explode some day,
So its time for the world to pay,
I'm letting the beast out to play.

Emoetry - Poetically Me

I'm thinking its about time,
For me to discover who I am,
To me life is poetry in motion,
Thats why I live for every moment,
I relate everything with a rhyme,
And when I don't I feel like a dam,
Just waiting for a major explosion,
Which causes poetic bombardment,

I am straight edged,
Finding happiness in my own way,
It may seem boring,
But at least I know I'm happy,
People call me deranged,
But I don't care about what they say,
Its best to just keep ignoring,
Living my life without getting angry,

Things happen for a reason,
Good or bad it still happens,
Just got to find the answers,
Of why it happened to you,
There's a way to cure poison,
And soften metal that hardens,
Picking myself up from the gutters,
I found what I must do,

My mind was on a stalemate,
I was living in a world with no light,
But I now I see things clearly,
And know the reasons I was made,
I may not be in a euphoric state,
But at least I'm thinking straight,
Fighting to make my dreams a reality,
I'm not ready let them fade,

I'm working hard to fight for it,
I'm studying every little detail,
I'm appreciating every second,
I'm carving my name in stone,
I may be a poetic, straight-edge misfit,
You may think I'll fail,
But I am one of a kind,
And I am 2nd to none.

Emoetry - Sadistic Rage

I told you I need my own space,
Yeah, I may be a baby face,
But I won't hesitate to punch you in your face,
My fists are deadlier than a gladiator's mace,
I'm going to enjoy putting you in your place,
Six feet under ending your rat race,

You're the person I love to hate,
The day I kill you will be our greatest date,
If I could I'd smash you with a metal plate,
If you thought your trip to hell was late,
I'm the grim reaper; here to seal your fate,
So yeah; Howdy mate!

I'm right here, face me if you dare,
I know I'm your favourite nightmare,
All your fears have been laid bare,
You're the easiest worm to scare,
Tell your friends; see if I a care,
They'll be afraid of me just with a glare,

There's no where for you to run now,
I'm going to slaughter you like a cow,
I have my methods; you don't want to know how,
Time for you to squeal like a dying sow,
You should have just kowtow,
When you're dead; I'll take a bow.

Emoetry - Dwindling Art

As I stood by that smelly "creek"
With 3 little versions of me,
The angel; devil and freak,
Thinking whats it going to be,

Just then; a beautiful girl passes us,
Hand in hand with her man,
Faced filled with pimpled pus,
I certainly wasn't a big fan,

Me: That dude is a lout,
Devil: Who has a face like a trout,
Angel: He ain't too bad; just a tad stout,
Freak: WHEE! Look at that platypus pout!

Such is the state of young love,
Anything does and can happen,
Just confess your love with a fake verve,
And whip out your secret weapon,

Girls like guys with cars,
They just like being whisked someone far,
Does it matter if he locks you up behind bars?
Wow! Thats a nice new scar,

Girls also like guys with fat wallets,
And an endless flow of money,
Its cool if he hits her with mallets,
With retail therapy everyday is sweet as honey,

Some girls like guys who are out of sight,
But is it worth all those stupid fights?
And how he screams at you with all his might?
Guys like these should be considered blights,

Then comes a guy with a great big smile,
It seems like he did some "coke" as long as a mile,
He also seems to get "it" more than once in awhile,
But deep down I can tell his bitter as bile,

Next to him is a walking skeleton,
Who acts posh like she's from London,
She drinks Earl Grey; never Lipton,
She even speaks like Paris Hilton,

Me: Look at that bean sprout,
Devil: How is she able to walk about?
Angel: Maybe she's trying to figure a look out,
Freak: Oh gosh! She's so thin I think I just got gout,

Guys like perfect complexion and no zits,
Not to mention round asses and big tits,
But whats with the fake personality?
Dude, please come back to reality,

Some guys treat girls like dogs,
I sure they've got a few rusty cogs,
Or probably they're just dumb as logs,
We should dissect them to study like frogs,

Some guys even like to "share",
Their herpes which isn't rare,
They do "it" like a wild hare,
Do "it" with them if you dare,

I guess its no longer 1965,
I'm watching a recording not live,
But I'm still not buying all that jive,
I'll patiently wait for true love to arrive,

Call me a classic romantic,
Its true I'm an old school fanatic,
You could even say I'm a new age heretic,
I like my life simple and not dramatic,

What happened to chemistry?
What happened to caring about personality?
Is finding love no longer an artistry?
Something has gone wrong with young society.

Emoetry - Inspiration Solution

Here I am telling myself,
"I've have to write",
This itch is worse than a mosquito bite,
I search for inspirations in my bookshelf,

Nothing helps me think,
I get discouraged in a blink,
It feels as if my mind is about to shrink,
I just scribble away wasting ink,

I turned on my stereo,
Munched on an "Oreo",
Still nothing comes to mind,
Where is the inspiration I'm dying to find?

How could I have lost it?
Did it escape when I popped a zit?
If it doesn't return I'm going to throw a fit,
Darn it I'm feeling like a nitwit,

I throw my pen & paper aside,
Then start searching deep inside,
For that little "Me" whose gone to hide,
Right now all I want is to take it for a ride,

As I close my eyes,
I find all sorts of coloured dyes,
I then remember a special file,
Finding it in a neatly stacked pile,

Its where I keep memories,
Memories made with someone,
Someone who enhances my abilities,
My abilities to finish all thats undone,

I find my little inspiration,
Sleeping between photos of her,
He knew she was the only solution,
He knew she makes my emotions stir,

I closed the file silently,
And left that storage room happily,
I finish another poem and read it proudly,
She read it and hugged me lovingly,

She's something I pray to never lose,
As she's the drug I choose to abuse,
She's my addiction; my muse,
She lights my poetic fuse.

Emoetry - Dream Phase

I had a dream about you and I,
When it ended I let out a long sigh,
I remembered everything clearly,
Now I'm wishing it happens in reality,

We were laying on the ground,
It was dusk and no one else could be found,
I was holding you tightly in my arms,
Not letting you go as you're my lucky charm,

I stared into your beautiful eyes,
Whispering into your ear sweet nothings and lovable lies,
We shared a quick kiss,
I still feel your soft and tender lips,

You played with my hair with your soft fingers,
That great scent of your skin still lingers,
Even when I'm awake I still feel your heat,
And every time I do my heart skips a beat,

I moved the silky hair that covered your face,
I then drew you closer in my embrace,
And kissed you once more,
You were so beautiful in that dress you wore,

In the end of that dream,
You stood up and walked towards that setting orb,
Your svelte figure embraced in the sun's gentle beam,
The beauty of your silhouette made my heart throb,

I woke up with the vision of you,
I would've been happier had it been true,
To be able to witness the great things you do,
But I can't; thats why I feel blue,

I had a dream about you and I,
When it ended I let out a long sigh,
I remembered everything clearly,
I'm going to make it happen in reality.

Emoetry - Your Soothing Presence

Its been a while,
Since I've had this feeling,
Where someone makes my heart stop beating,
With just a sweet smile,
Its been so long,
Since someone calmed me down,
She's like a princess minus the gown,
Its no wonder my feelings for her are strong,

I feel her presence,
Although she's far,
Without her; my heart is an open scar,
Which will never heal in her absence,
I love her presence,
When she's around me,
She soothes me like the sweet scent of incense,
Or how nectar entices a bee,

Its hard to keep these feelings deep within,
When its her i want to look at the stars with,
And lay on the grass discussing every silly little myth,
Letting her go would be an unforgivable sin,
Its so hard to keep these feelings deep inside,
Its even harder to get her out of my mind,
She's the answer I've been dying to find,
But for now this is something I have to hide,

I'll patiently wait for the day,
Where she'll finally be mine,
So I could say,
My life is finally more than fine,
No matter how long it may take,
No matter what sacrifices I have to make,
I'll wait for her,
This is one dream nothing can deter.

Emoetry - One For The Angels

As my wings break,
I start falling from grace,
I knew my life was at stake,
As I fell at such a fast pace,

I hit the ground hard,
Yet I left unscathed,
I should have broken as if I were a card,
Yet in the acid rain I bathed,

The rain burned,
The moon was red,
Like the blood I bled,
Death was something I yearned,

Alive and breathing,
Angry and seething,
Still searching for the meaning,
Of why I was still living,

I walked towards a lake,
With the souls of the hopeless,
One step was all I had to take,
To join the horde of lifeless,

I moved closer to the rippling surface,
My reflection was unrecognizable,
I spit at it in utter disgrace,
My life has been a total fable,

Fabricated to the point,
Where it felt so real,
But it felt like a sleazy strip joint,
Like a card game with a rotten deal,

I lost all glimmer of hope,
But as I was about to take that final step,
Someone held me from an invisible rope,
Stopping my self made trap,

Blurry eyed I see something magnificent,
They had majestic wings,
It was hard to ignore that they were present,
These angelic beings,

They held me up facing the cerulean ceiling,
With the warm sunshine heating my cold soul,
My darkest night turned into a beautiful morning,
They removed from my life everything that was foul,

They restore my strength,
When I feel that I've lost it all,
They help me stand tall,
When I'm out of breath,

They give me a peaceful life,
Whenever troubles are rife,
They do their best,
To help me pass every little test,

I now know that I'm never alone,
As I've always had them around,
Sometimes we think they're gone,
But in truth they're easily found,

What do they know?
These people that claim angels are dead,
That all this is just in my head,
That its a fairytale I follow,

They may try to break what I believe,
But I know that angels live,
They just take on different roles,
From friends to family they fill up these little holes,

That make our lives empty,
That make living dreary,
Which sometimes makes us go crazy,
And ends up putting us in a frenzy,

To my closest of friends,
I say thank you for all you've done,
You've given my life colour in every tone,
Thank you for straightening all the bends,

To my family members,
I would like to express my gratitude,
And I will never be able to find a substitute,
That keeps my soul burning like embers,

You're all to me a necessary substance,
I could never live with your absence,
Wherever I go I feel your presence,
You're all to me God's greatest presents.

Emoetry - Childish Dreams

In the backseat of a car,
A child sits quietly,
The wheels spin slowly over tar,
He stares out the window dreamily,

In the front his parents are busy,
To even pay him any attention,
In their minds its just the thought of money,
Or finding a complicated business solution,

He sighs while looking on the outside,
Buses rumbling, people walking, bikes zooming,
A yawn escapes his mouth; its a really slow ride,
A few minutes later the child is dreaming,

He never had this dream before,
It was a dream in a myriad of colors,
He was sure this dream was not a bore,
Unlike the other dreams he abhors,

The dream was populated,
With his friends and favorite heroes,
It was also filled with toys he wanted,
This dream definitely killed his woes,

A certain "Big Blue",
Took him for a flight up in the sky,
If only this were all true,
To have the ability to fly,

Next up was a ride on a "Speeder bike",
With a very famous "Skywalker",
This was 1 dream he didn't just like,
He wished he'd be able to stay in it forever,

They raced to the edge of hill,
Where they stood to watch the twin suns set,
What a sight it was; remember this dream he will,
A dog appeared; she was once his pet,

Seeing her he breaks down in tears,
Hugging her and patting her the usual way,
She was his only friend who helped fight his fears,
He loved her so much and missed her everyday,

Master and pet then strolled in a meadow,
Lush greenery and all sorts of pretty flowers,
There was a stream that had an unending flow,
Bears were fishing for their suppers,

Wearing flannel shirts and overalls,
They looked funny; sort of like hillbillies,
One greeted him and clumsily stumbles and falls,
A loud splash followed scaring away the guppies,

Entering the woods across the stream,
He skips and he sings,
The trees do not stop the sunbeam,
From shining through the surroundings,

He finds an opening,
He lies down facing the sky laden with clouds,
He falls asleep under skies that are comforting,
And the silence of the forest without any sounds,

As he was about to fall into a deep sleep,
He heard his mother calling his name,
He had to tell her; this was a dream he couldn't keep,
This dream changed his life; it was never the same,

The child has grown,
But he still visits this dream,
This dream calms his feelings of being down,
To him its much better than "Cookies and Cream",

It may be childish,
But it keeps him alive,
Its where he stores his every wish,
Its this dream that makes him thrive.

Emoetry - Ode to Thee

They both walked hand in hand,
Believing that they'd never have to let go,
They both walked to a road with a bend,
It had a fork dividing their lives; they knew what the had to do,

They both let go of each other,
Looking into each other's teary eyes,
They didn't want to walk any further,
It was too soon for them to say their goodbyes,

This was the hardest part of it all,
Even worst than the time they fought,
This was nothing close to the art painting on the wall,
By this time it was solace that they sought,

Memories of being in each other's arms,
Memories of hugging each other to sleep at night,
Memories of mornings where they'd turn off each other's alarms,
Memories of every unnecessary fight,

They looked ahead at the road that seemed never ending,
They looked back but the road that brought them there disappeared,
They walked the road ahead of them without reminiscing,
They tried to throw away every thought and feeling they ever feared,

Although her heart was heavy,
She moved on gracefully through that road,
He on the contrary,
Decided to turn around he had to lighten his load,

He wasn't ready for what lied ahead,
He needed to finish all that he had to accomplish,
Not regretting the choice he made,
Walking back to the place he had made that wish,

The wish of them being together forever,
This time he made the wish completely different,
He wished her all the best in his prayer,
She was like an angel that God sent,

She picked him up when he fell,
She made him laugh when he was sad,
She made him felt loved and free of hell,
All in all...she made him glad,

This little poem is to you,
For everything that you've done for me,
After everything thats happened I still love you,
Sadly things just turned out how we didn't want it to be,

You've brought me joy,
You've changed the way I lived,
You've even made me feel like a little boy,
You've even made me start to believe,

That there is a purpose to go on,
Because you made everything seem fine,
That this is the life I wouldn't have to abandon,
I will always be happy that I once called you mine,

I was broken into pieces,
And you mended my broken soul,
The time I've spent with you was the greatest,
A part of my soul is what you'll always hold,

This is an ode to thee,
Who filled my life with glee,
This is an ode to thee,
Who gave me back pieces of me,

This is an ode to thee,
Who in darkness helped me see,
This is an ode to thee,
Who will forever be a part of me.

Emoetry - A Hunger for Anger

As he stares at the mirror,
He finds another person staring back at him,
His body burns up with an intense fervor,
Who could this person be? He couldn't tell as the lights were dim,

He screams at his reflection that seems to tear itself apart,
The man in the mirror mutilates himself with a sick smile,
An hour is how long it seemed to take for the demon to reach into its heart,
It wasn't human of course it looked beyond vile,

With valves and veins that ran through it over and under,
Although out of its body it was still pumping,
It wasn't long till he notice the heart had eyes that stared at him in hunger,
Thunder roared and the dimly lighted room was lit by lightning,

Outside it started to pour intensely,
Inside he started to feel like he was going to faint,
His hands were wet they were both bleeding profusely,
Looking at the floor and the wall it looked like someone had just used it as paint,

He couldn't remember how he cut himself,
Trouble is he didn't even feel the pain of it all,
In an instant he ran to search for bandages on the top shelf,
The floor was slippery with his own blood that causes him to fall,

Knocking his head on the window sill,
He cracked his forehead wide open,
At this moment he panicked but still fought with a warrior's will,
Thoughts of how the thread of his life were woven,

An untimely death was what he didn't expect,
It all began with his freakishly twisted reflection,
Very sure that it had a deal with the devil or a pact,
Sitting up against the wall he faced the demonic vision,

Eyes red as rubies lit in its sockets,
The heart was jumping up and down ready to strike,
It had mouths more than any pants had pockets,
It's teeth were sharper than a guardsman's pike,

The mirror shattered into a million splinters,
Shattering with such force it was worse compared to a road accident,
Even after a few painstaking moments the pain still lingers,
At his moment of death he wondered what all this meant,

In a daze and utter state of confusion he could see,
The demon and its heart walking onto the glass,
The situation became worse now that they're free,
The closer they were the larger they grew in mass,

The stench of the demon was unbearable as it stood close,
He could clearly see now that it looked nothing like in books,
It then bent down to where he was and its tail tighten on his neck like a hose,
Gasping for air he grabbed on the demon's arm it's skin felt like hooks,

A smile so sickening made it's way onto the demonic figure's face,
Letting out a guttural laugh it stuck it's finger's into his chest cavity,
Ripping open his chest with ease like it was made of lace,
For the 1st time in his life he knew how it felt to be in agony,

To make matters worse the demonic heart drew near,
Saliva thick and laden around it's mouths,
The air was thick with the stench of his fear,
How was he to overcome this situation that kept going South,

The truth is he couldn't and he never had a chance,
Just as his vision faded he saw the heart jump into his chest,
The moment the searing pain started he went into a traumatic trance,
All he could do was just try his best....

In bed he woke up with cold sweat and he was shivering,
It was only dream yet it felt so real,
Even the pain felt so real that he almost started crying,
He even felt like going for a meal,

Deciding to change his sweat soaked shirt,
Taking it off and it was then that he found the unexpected,
He saw that his chest was still ripped and instantly knew why he hurt,
He stood staring at the mirror once again and almost fainted,

The demon was no longer there,
Instead it was just his reflection in sight,
At that moment details of his dreams were laid bare,
In reality he had lost the fight.....

Emoetry - Walking Dead

A friend recently asked me "How's life & everything?",
I told her its like a distorted dream close to a nightmare,
She replied "You've gotta be bluffing",
I said nothing and just gave her a glare,

I then said "I think its something I don't have right now",
Continuing this I said "I just don't know what it could be",
All she said was "Don't look at me, how should I know?",
So we just sat there our faces had no signs of glee,

Once again I broke the silence,
With the words "I'm like a rusty cog in a clock",
I continue "I think there is no need for my existence",
Ending what I had to said with "Life is such a fucking cock",

She laughed while exhaling the smoke from her fag,
After she stopped her piercing laughter thats always on a high pitch,
She said "Yeah, I know how life could be a drag",
After a puff she continues "Thats why sometimes its also known to be a bitch",

Hearing what she said I added "But she's a beautiful one",
Its totally the opposite of what I've said earlier,
She snorted and I added "But I swear God left it half-done",
Getting off the sidewalk I say "Fuck this, I need a beer",

We walked down the sidewalk,
Both trying to look for a way to avoid being hit by idiotic cars,
It was totally silent as we both didn't want to talk,
I turned around to talk to her but that was when I fell and was facing the stars,

She rushed to me but I could hear her laughter,
While helping me up she said "Thats the smartest thing you've done today",
I could've killed her but I was actually laughing and not in anger,
Whilst dusting myself off I said "Thanks, lets go get something to eat, I'll pay",

We found this little place to eat down a dark and dirty alley,
We both ordered a plate of noodles and a drink,
The food was sickening so we stood and left the money,
It wasn't long after we left that I started to think,

How life just left me out on the gutter,
I tried to say something but it never came,
She looked at me like I'm some kind of nutter,
It was good I said nothing because it would have been something lame,

We walked for hours without a word,
We were close to where we needed to go,
Anything that we say now would just be unheard,
Both of us decided to leave it so,

I gave her a hug and said "Well, its been fun and swell",
Smiling she said "Yeah, I can't believe its just seven",
She turned around to the bright light and returned to heaven,
I walked down an alley...back into the pits of hell.

Emoetry - Initiation

As my friends are all moving up,
I sit by these lonely steps looking down,
Will I always be that little lost pup?
Who runs to find his place in this big town?

Chasing dreams have never been easy,
Especially when I never had 1 to begin with,
Trying to figure myself out just makes me queasy,
It seems like the things I want to do only exist in a myth,

I look up at the night sky and make a wish on a star,
I wish for a dream that I wish to experience,
But a wish only makes that dream drift afar,
The truth is only I can make this dream commence,

No longer will I sit on the bench of waiting,
No longer will I wait for the bus of hope,
As I will redeem myself from this failing,
And show everyone that I can cope,

I can cope with the hardship,
I will make it through the problems that arrive,
Rising to a challenge will just be another road trip,
It is time that I breathe life into my dreams and watch them grow live,

No longer will I cause disappointment,
No longer will I make myself feel helpless,
The truth is my heart is a strong foundation of a monument,
I will no longer be the stone thats useless,

I will change my life for the better,
Not just mine but my family's too,
I shall heed the words of my father,
When I put my mind to it; there's nothing that I can't do.

Emoetry - Dad = Dud

Dear dad, what do you see?
When you look at me?
Have I become what you've wanted me to be?
Has everything you ever wished for in a son manifested,
Somehow; I feel as though I'm not what you've expected,
Somehow; It feels as though you're disappointed.

There are time when I despise you,
Yet I've been raised to love you,
But everything I've done is never right for you,
You've never told me anything thats why I never have a clue,
You just start screaming at me out of the blue,
Your harsh words; stick in my mind as if it were glue.

Where is the man I go to for guidance?
Where is the man I look for whose advice is always in abundance?
Where is the man who I thought shined with a great radiance?
The more pain you put me through the more I'll stand in defiance,
The more anger I have for you makes me feel like you're a hindrance,
The more hostility I have for you will 1 day make me deem you a nuisance.

I've always looked up to you as an idol proudly,
Yet you've always shunned me aside coldly,
I've wished for the day where you'd talk to me calmly,
Without the angry tone of voice and hostility.
Without you always saying that I'm faulty,
Without you constantly putting me in a place of disability.

I know its not my place to change who you are,
The times we've spent as father & son are close to rare,
Its not that I do not care,
I've just never wanted to cause you pain,
Thats why I've hardly complain,
But I've got to let all this hate & anger out of my brain.

I do not want to hate my father,
I do not want to live in a state of anger,
I know walking that road leads to danger,
But what can I do if this continues to linger,
Is the only way of stopping this to sunder?
By drawing our relationship further and further?

These are the problems I wish I could solve,
These feelings of anger and hate I wish could dissolve,
If only my heart and mind was a valve,
I would be able to release these feelings with ease,
And stop feeling like I'm stuck with a disease,
And find a way for all these hate to cease.

To my father I apologize and say sorry,
I know I've always made you angry,
And I've done everything to make you worry,
Having a son like me does seem like a curse,
I'm sure all I do is make things worse,
So for now, all I'll do is get out of your way till the day I'm in a hearse.