Emoetry - U.I.

I went to bed angry,
But woke up with tears in my eyes,
With thoughts fuzzy and vision blurry,
Wondering why my love for you won't die,

I stare at the blank walls,
Of what was once our home... Now my prison,

And a floor that is laid out with pitfalls,

And rooms and halls filled with demons,

I wonder how did you feel,
When you walked away from what we had,
Because your freedom left me encased in steel,
The silence and loneliness slowly driving me mad,

I get up to stand on my two feet,
Only for my knees to buckle under the weight,
I guess this is my taste of defeat,
But strangely I feel no anger or hate,

I sit on the floor in a state of confusion,
Instead of missing you less each day,
And wanting to get away from this complication,
I seem to be missing you more in every way,

I dust myself off and use the bed for leverage,
And walk towards the closed door,
Telling myself I will learn to manage,
On my own... without you for awhile more,

I feel the sunshine hit me as the door opens,
It instantly reminds me of the warmth of you,
Immediately my heart and soul is awoken,
And I immediately stop feeling so blue,

I know even though you are no longer here,
You still have a piece of my heart in your hands,
Which is why I must stay strong and persevere,
Until you return so we can finally make amends.

Emoetry - If We Never

If we never met,
I wonder where our lives would be,
You'd be a lot happier I bet,
Living a life without the memory of me,

If we never said hello,
I wonder if we'd end up here today,

Both feeling a little hollow,

And "sorry" is all that we have to say,

If we never went for our first date,

I wonder if I would have been happy for six years,

But then again...maybe it wasn't our fate,

Especially after all the fights and tears,

If we never had our first kiss,

I wonder if things would have ended up this messy,

And now you're the one that I constantly miss,

During rainy days or even when it is sunny,

If we never fell in love,

I wonder if you'd have found someone better,

Your true guardian angel sent from up above,

Who'd shower you with flowers and love letters,

If we never had those petty and stupid fights,

I wonder if you'd still be with me right now,

Holding me through my darkest days and nights,

Calming me with your bright and loving glow,

If we never ended up where we are currently,

I wonder if you'd still want to have time apart,

From me and everything we've built loftily,

Because you still hold the very key to my heart,

If we never speak to each other again,

I wonder if you'd still think of us once in awhile,

And I hope you'd be able to forget all the pain,

And once again show the world your beautiful smile,

If we never get a chance to see each other,

I wonder if I'll still be left here wondering,

What life would be like if you loved another,

While I'm left here in a standstill and hoping,

If you never ever want to come back,

I wonder if I'd ever be able to forget the one I lost,

Because you were the one keeping my life on track,

Which is why losing you in my life has been the worst.