Emoetry - Hush

Hush…that's what she said as she placed her index finger on my lips,

As soon as her finger lifted…we found ourselves locked in a passionate kiss,

My hands moved lower down her body and held her tight around her hips,

It was at that moment…I knew I had found my very own version of bliss,

Hush…that's what she said as we stood atop the car park staring at the stars,

I stood silent…eyes transfixed on the silhouette that is her body in the dark,

I catch a glimpse of her beautiful face from the moonlight and lights of passing cars,

It was at that moment…I knew that this was definitely more than a spark,

Hush…that's what she said as we laid on my bed in each others embrace,

The silence broken by the melody of pouring rain hitting hard on the roof tiles,

I held her close…matched her breathing and felt my heart race,

It was at that moment…I knew I wanted this to last for more than "just awhile",

Hush…that was the last thing she said to me as she walked away,

Back to the arms of another who deserved her more than I ever will,

I flashed her a smile…the one that shows her that I am and will be okay,

It was at that moment…I knew what was coming was more than a bitter pill,

Hush…that was what I said to myself to keep my heart from breaking,

Even though the tears had already started forming and falling from my eyes,

I knew this was never going to end up where I wanted it…I should've seen it coming,

It was at this moment…I knew this is what happens when you fall in love with lies.

Emoetry - Break

You find yourself awake at 3 in the morning,
With slivers of light breaking through the curtain,
As the skies are filled with flashes of lightning,
And crashes of thunder highlight the presence of rain,

You on the other hand are stifling the surge of emotions,
And holding back the wave of tears that is set to follow,
As the darkness in your mind brings out the demons,
That have found their way into your heart that feels hollow,

You close your eyes only to be met with flashbacks,
Of the countless mistakes that you've made,
Further feeding your demons for their eventual attack,
You then think of your regrets which sharpens their blades,

You start to gasp for air and start taking deep breaths,
Only to feel as though you're suffocating further,
And all you can hope for is a quick and painless death,
This is when you start believing in a Heavenly Father,

You feel the pain of wounds that slowly start to show,
A stark reminder of the countless times you've fallen,
With the results being skinned knees and grazed elbows,
Leaving you feeling a little worst for wear and downtrodden,

You keep telling yourself that there is no end to this nightmare,
That you're destined to walk a lonely path of pain and sorrow,
You're convince that you will never escape from the devil's lair,
And all that's left for you is despair and a darker tomorrow,

But know this o'child of the Earth and His kingdom,
The darkness, sorrow and pain never lasts,
For you will find the strength, resolve and wisdom,
To realise that all these demons and ghosts are in the past,

Dig down deep and realise that you are more than your mistakes,
Dig down deep and let go of your doubts and regrets,
You will learn that your soul may bend but it never breaks,
And you will learn that each mistake you’ve made are actually assets,

If you ever feel lost in the midst of the fog and darkness,
All you have to do is reach your hand out and say a little prayer,
And your guardian angels will lead you out of the madness,
Into days where things will seem much brighter,

Because just like the street lights that come through your curtain in slivers,
The light always finds a way to make it to the darkest corners,
When all seems bleak and hopeless; remember this o'child,
You are loved and the world wants to see your smile.

Emoetry - U.I.

I went to bed angry,
But woke up with tears in my eyes,
With thoughts fuzzy and vision blurry,
Wondering why my love for you won't die,

I stare at the blank walls,
Of what was once our home... Now my prison,

And a floor that is laid out with pitfalls,

And rooms and halls filled with demons,

I wonder how did you feel,
When you walked away from what we had,
Because your freedom left me encased in steel,
The silence and loneliness slowly driving me mad,

I get up to stand on my two feet,
Only for my knees to buckle under the weight,
I guess this is my taste of defeat,
But strangely I feel no anger or hate,

I sit on the floor in a state of confusion,
Instead of missing you less each day,
And wanting to get away from this complication,
I seem to be missing you more in every way,

I dust myself off and use the bed for leverage,
And walk towards the closed door,
Telling myself I will learn to manage,
On my own... without you for awhile more,

I feel the sunshine hit me as the door opens,
It instantly reminds me of the warmth of you,
Immediately my heart and soul is awoken,
And I immediately stop feeling so blue,

I know even though you are no longer here,
You still have a piece of my heart in your hands,
Which is why I must stay strong and persevere,
Until you return so we can finally make amends.

Emoetry - If We Never

If we never met,
I wonder where our lives would be,
You'd be a lot happier I bet,
Living a life without the memory of me,

If we never said hello,
I wonder if we'd end up here today,

Both feeling a little hollow,

And "sorry" is all that we have to say,

If we never went for our first date,

I wonder if I would have been happy for six years,

But then again...maybe it wasn't our fate,

Especially after all the fights and tears,

If we never had our first kiss,

I wonder if things would have ended up this messy,

And now you're the one that I constantly miss,

During rainy days or even when it is sunny,

If we never fell in love,

I wonder if you'd have found someone better,

Your true guardian angel sent from up above,

Who'd shower you with flowers and love letters,

If we never had those petty and stupid fights,

I wonder if you'd still be with me right now,

Holding me through my darkest days and nights,

Calming me with your bright and loving glow,

If we never ended up where we are currently,

I wonder if you'd still want to have time apart,

From me and everything we've built loftily,

Because you still hold the very key to my heart,

If we never speak to each other again,

I wonder if you'd still think of us once in awhile,

And I hope you'd be able to forget all the pain,

And once again show the world your beautiful smile,

If we never get a chance to see each other,

I wonder if I'll still be left here wondering,

What life would be like if you loved another,

While I'm left here in a standstill and hoping,

If you never ever want to come back,

I wonder if I'd ever be able to forget the one I lost,

Because you were the one keeping my life on track,

Which is why losing you in my life has been the worst.

Emoetry - Crash

As he sits and listens to the waves crash,
With a cigarette now mostly ash,
His mind wanders to memories of the past,
And how things spiraled out of control so fast,

There are days that leave him empty and in a daze,
And there are others that leave him in an inescapable maze,
His own little hell of anger, confusion, sadness and pain,
A place he swore that he would never be in again,

But how could he have seen in coming?
The eventual crash of everything he had hoped for,
But how could he have stopped what he was feeling?
Well....quite frankly, he has actually been here before,

So he should have known better than to fight the "good fight",
He should have stopped being so arrogant and defiant,
He should have just thrown in the towel when it was right,
But no...he just had to topple this imaginary giant,

For it was something that would have given him closure,
And it was something that would free him from his torment,
But in the end...it was just a giant mountain of manure,
Leaving him with nothing but a hard fall to the cement,

Once again his self-confidence had gotten the better of him,
When common sense and logic should have taken over,
Now all that is left is little to no hope that flickers so dim,
And a memory that he didn't expect to be this sour,

Once again he listens to the waves crash,
As blood escapes the wound of the slash,
And drips into the ocean and slowly drifts away,
Just like that "perfect" moment he let go of that day.