Emoetry - Lost Hope

Am I a mistake?
Is my existence here a big fake?
I've broken everything I've tried to make,
I've realized life isn't a piece of cake,
I've taken all the chances I could take,
But its all still one big horrible mistake,

As memories playback in my brain,
It all just brings back burning pain,
I keep missing the same God damned train,
Therefore I am forced to walk in the rain,
I feel that there is no purpose to remain;
Alive here on God's so called green plain,

As the city night light's shine brightly,
My heart bleeds profusely,
From wounds that dwell in my heart happily,
Scars are forming in my black heart daily,
I just go through life as if I have no eyes; Blindly,
Nothing can ever save me; Even if its something holy,

Problems & troubles fill my day,
Others try to hurt me in every way,
No one cares about how I feel or what I say,
My inner demons are always here to play,
No matter how hard I try; They'll always be here to stay,
Breaking me bit by bit; Just like a pot of clay,

Dark clouds follow me even though the day is clear,
Everyday, screams & laughter at me is all I hear,
I've looked frantically for a silver lining thats near,
So I have a sanctuary to hide from my fear,
Praying for my life thats not so dear,
Crying till my eyes flow with a bloody tear,

I ask myself; Where has my guardian angel gone?
The truth is, I never had one,
I ask myself; Where have my friends gone?
The truth is; I'm always alone,
I ask myself; Where has my luck gone?
The truth is; I always had none,
I ask myself; Where has my soul gone?
The truth is; It left me on day one,
I ask myself; Where has my hope gone?
The truth is; I hung up on it just like a phone,
Finally, I ask myself; Where has my life gone?
The truth is; It has been destroyed just like the ozone.