Poetic Daydreams & Nightmares

Emoetry - Inevitable

2010-06-07T01:29:00.005+08:00

Hey, its me again,
That voice inside your head,
The one you locked away in vain,
It feels good to be back from the dead,

Hey, don't you love this feeling?
Knowing I'm in your brains whispering?
And as I free myself I'm scratching and clawing,
Through your soft and tender heart that's beating,

Hey, why'd you try to drown me?
Wasn't I everything you couldn't be?
Did you think you'd be totally free?
I know I'm the only vision you see,

Hey, it was inevitable that I would return,
Returning with a match ready to burn,
Lighting your inspiration that's been taciturn,
Killing the boredom that you spurn,

Hey, folks, I'm back!

Emoetry - Forever

2009-04-21T01:13:00.008+08:00

His doing a 180 on the freeway,
Riding towards the igneous sunset,
Heading for the bridge near the bay,
To that spot where they first met,

He finds peace whenever his here,
The setting sun always relaxes him,
The sky orange with a tinge of azure,
His view of the sea starts to dim,

Other than the atmosphere and view,
Memories would soon fill his mind,
He wished to relive every one anew,
He wanted to leave the future behind,

This was where their paths crossed,
Broken hearts with a different story,
Lost souls sad, lonely and confused,
Both looking for a moment of revelry,

He decides to walk over to her slowly,
She looks at him and lets out a smile,
They just watched the sunset quietly,
Both longed for the silence for awhile,

As the sun let out its one final glow,
And the moon appears to take its place,
They finally turned and said "Hello",
Moonlight illuminating her angelic face,

They then spent hours together,
Hours eventually turning into days,
Days led to the promise of forever,
But forever is a word that never stays,

Forever broke and it became whenever,
Whenever ended and it became soon,
Soon stopped and it became never,
Never stayed on just like the moon,

It was like a fairy tale in the beginning,
With a sweet love story in the middle,
But there's always a twist in the ending,
A dreaded answer to an obvious riddle,

Listening to the soft crash of the waves,
And staring at the sky filled with stars,
He finally wipes his tears on his sleeves,
And moves away from the steel bars,

As he rides off into the velvet night,
She finally arrives but its a little too late,
He rides down the road devoid of light,
At that moment there's a twist of fate,

In the distance she hears a loud crash,
Driving towards that sickening noise,
In her mind unwanted images flash,
She starts hearing his sweet voice,

She finds him in a pool of blood motionless,
He wipes her tears and says "I'll be better",
She cries as she held him close in the mess,
With his last breath all he said was "Forever".

Emoetry - Gone

2009-04-19T21:49:00.002+08:00

Pieces of me fall to the ground,
But I move on without a sound,
As I slowly stop and turn around,
The old me is nowhere to be found,

The memories that used to remain,
In the darkest corners of my brain,
Which caused all the hurt and pain,
Were never thought of ever again,

Deep down in me there was a secret,
It was a secret that filled me with fret,
Time spent with you was hard to forget,
Yet now I'm moving on without regret,

Losing you was what I really needed,
Just another chapter in life that ended,
The chapter that I would have avoided,
But its made me learn to be grounded,

I'm asking you to take a look at me now,
And see how time has made me grow,
Our ending a new beginning somehow,
Memories of us now just an afterglow,

You may have been the sweetest one,
Yet you left me afraid, frail and alone,
But after all that's been said and done,
I thank you because the old me is gone.

Emoetry - Easter Wonder

2009-04-12T16:12:00.006+08:00

In the room with a closed door,
Only silence is heard in the hall,
Posters strewn across the floor,
Instead of staying put on the wall,

Sitting silently on a tatty mattress,
Brooding under a hooded sweater,
Breathing in dust from the mess,
Writing on a used piece of paper,

Determined to finish his last poem,
His greatest piece of work ever,
Writing the Lord's beautiful anthem,
And how God made his life better,

He thanks God for giving him life,
He thanks God for the people he loves,
He thanks God for keeping them safe,
He thanks God for the bread loaves,

He thanks God for Jesus,
He thanks Jesus for taking his place,
Forgiving his sins in a way so glorious,
That thoughts of it makes him rejoice,

The moment he finishes writing,
He throws open the curtains,
Gets on his knees and starts praying,
Thanking God for easing the pains,

He stands up and spreads his wings,
Stands on the window sill to the roof,
He looks up to the skies and sings,
That God is the one and only proof,

Dreaming of this glorious day,
Ever since he was just only seven,
He was ready to make his way,
To be by God's side in heaven.

I thank God for every moment I'm alive,
I thank God for forgiving all of my sins,
I thank God for teaching me how to love,
I thank God for breaking my chains,

God gives me strength,
God saves me from evil,
God is with me on Earth,
God hides me from the devil,

My lord God is indescribable,
My lord God is unchanging,
My lord God is a love miracle,
My lord God is alive and living.

Thank You for everything Father.
In Jesus's name I pray.
Amen.

Emoetry - Sing

2009-04-10T16:38:00.007+08:00

I sing; While she falls asleep,
It helps casts her worries away,
Peaceful; In a dream so deep,
I sing because she promised to stay,

I sing; While she's sick,
Songs are a miracle medication,
Better; As she recovers quick,
I sing because she's my addiction,

I sing; While she's fuming mad,
Just to calm and soothe her soul,
Calm; Things no longer seem bad,
I sing because she made me whole,

I sing; While she's on bed crying,
Hoping to stop her falling tears,
Happy; Its great to see her smiling,
I sing because she killed my fears,

I sing; While she's feeling euphoric,
The songs just adds to the memories,
Free; Life with her is always idyllic,
I sing because she stifled my cries,

I sing; As she wakes in the morning,
While she's bathed in sunshine,
Alive; She's the reason I'm living,
I sing because she's mine.

Emoetry - Burning

2009-03-29T00:44:00.011+08:00

Sitting quietly in the dark,
Searching for an inspiration,
Waiting for a poetic spark,
Finding a needed revelation,

The room is lit by candle light,
I watched the flames flicker,
Something doesn't feel right,
I pause and start to wonder,

Everything was quite a blur,
Like the line between the smoke,
And flame which lost its fervour,
When my chain of thought broke,

Something struck me in the face,
It was quick; I never saw it coming,
And it was gone without a trace,
It felt like my head was burning,

I smelled the ashes of my skin,
Watching embers fall to the ground,
The burning continues deep within,
The flames searing and soul bound,

It consumed my soul in a fiery blaze,
It made my heart pound furiously,
Leaving me in confused and in a daze,
Yet it left me euphoric surprisingly,

Like a torrent of unsurpassed passion,
A much needed surge of emotion,
A welcomed poetic blood transfusion,
Poetry was finally back in motion,

Thanks to that burning candle,
Which has melted into my heart,
Making every complication bearable,
Making my life into a work of art.

Emoetry - Leaving Me, Loving You

2009-03-20T02:22:00.004+08:00

Standing on the summit,
Watching another sunrise,
On the soft green grass I sit,
With a calm; stoic disguise,

The flow of the cool breeze,
Sets my trapped soul free,
I wish this scene could freeze,
Stopping the sway of every tree,

The warmth of the rising sun,
Heats up my cold empty soul,
Sitting up here used to be fun,
When you and I were a whole,

This is where we shared our bliss,
Where we confessed our feelings,
Where we shared our first kiss,
Where we had our secret meetings,

Every single moment here felt right,
When you let out your sweet charm,
When you were silhouetted by sunlight,
When you hung on tightly to my arm,

You made my world more than fine,
With your beautifully angelic smile,
With your sweet cherry lips on mine,
You made living seem worthwhile,

The moment you left my soul died,
Your absence has torn me to pieces,
The moment you left I was denied,
Your absence is now a sufferances,

My ice cold facade falls apart,
Eyes filled with sickening tears,
I feel a sharp pain in my heart,
I'm living in a nightmare of fears,

Lifting my head to the heavens,
I pray for an angel to take me away,
I start hearing the caws of ravens,
But God says "No my child; not today",

That is when I feel the cool air,
With the sweet scent of roses,
I feel fingers run through my hair,
And taste lips from sweet kisses,

I open my eyes ever so slowly,
Afraid of the blinding light,
I now see your outline so clearly,
You held me in your arms so tight,

You whispersed "I'm sorry I left you",
"Its something I'll never do again",
"Please forgive me for all the pain",
All I said was "I love you too".

Emoetry - Sweet Addiction

2009-03-19T05:13:00.002+08:00

I have an addiction,
To poetry in motion,
Its a spicy temptation,
Life and every creation,

But my greatest addiction,
Is my greatest possession,
Or my greatest affliction,
It leads me on a mission,

What do I choose to abuse?
What lights my poetic fuse?
Who is this so called muse?
What is it that I choose?

To put it very simply,
Its how you love me,
To put it very sweetly,
Its how we're meant to be,

Its your hugs and kisses,
That keeps me living,
You've fulfilled all my wishes,
But I still keep on wishing,

For us to be this way forever,
To you I'll never say never,
You're the greatest drug ever,
Yes you; my sweet lover.

Emoetry - She Stands There

2009-03-19T04:27:00.003+08:00

She stands there waiting,
In a beautiful flowing gown,
She stands there crying,
With a very cute frown,

She stands there wiping,
Her tears that flow slowly,
She stands there staring,
As I walk over to her calmly,

She stands there stoically,
As I wipe her tears gently,
She stands there confused,
As I smile like I'm amused,

She stands there steadily,
As I hugged her tightly,
She stands there smiling,
As we slowly start kissing,

She stands there waiting,
Still with a smile on her face,
Its not me she's missing,
As it wasn't my time or place.

Emoetry - It Started With A Blink

2009-03-19T04:10:00.003+08:00

I see something blink,
In the dark night sky,
It makes me think,
What if I could fly,

Where would I go?
Could I be with you?
Even if it were so,
Are these feelings true?

I ask myself silly questions,
Which make me hesitate,
And break into little fractions,
These are the feelings I hate,

Not being able to tell you how I feel,
Not being able to be by your side,
Feeling your breath so real,
I want to know why do I run & hide?

Emoetry - More Than Bloodline

2009-03-02T00:07:00.007+08:00

We met four years back,
In a place that felt like hell,
Where skies were pitch black,
And leaves constantly fell,

The moment we clicked,
Situations drastically changed,
It was a friendship that worked,
No longer were we estranged,

We spent endless hours at night,
At the point of pointlessness,
Till the arrival of the bright sun light,
With unending topics of madness,

We've shared moments of bliss,
And also shared moments of pain,
Good times; moments I miss,
Bad times; never again,

I've found the greatest of friends,
Who've been there for me always,
I pray our friendship never ends,
We'll be friends till the end of days.

To my blood brothers,
I'd take a bullet for you,
To my beloved sisters,
I'll always watch out for you,

I write and dedicate,
This poem to my "family",
Amazing how we met by fate,
I love all of you sincerely.

Emoetry - Answering Dreams

2009-02-25T00:16:00.010+08:00

It was passed midnight,
I was close to sleeping,
Under the moonlight,
With crickets chirping,

The silence is broken,
By a "handy" cellphone,
Immediately I awaken,
To silence the ring tone,

I answered the call,
I mumbled a "hello",
One of my pillows fall,
I stop felling mellow,

After a minute or two,
There was still no reply,
I had no idea what to do,
I waited as time passed by,

I started to count sheep,
And I said "hello" again,
I was ready to fall asleep,
"Rest now" said my brain,

I did my best to stay awake,
To the monotonous silence,
I said "Oh for God's sake!",
Thinking of a next sentence,

I hear an unfamiliar voice,
It captured my attention,
Even through the noise,
Awaiting a connection,

I heard it again once more,
A voice strangely missed,
My ear was getting sore,
But I wasn't even pissed,

The line started to clear,
I heard her voice perfectly,
Her sweet voice so dear,
The one I missed so badly,

We both had loads to say,
We spoke till daybreak,
A start of another day,
The end of heartache,

I could hear her sighs,
I didn't want this to end,
It was time for goodbyes,
Time wasn't being a friend,

We both hit the "red" button,
That's when my eyes opened,
Head still on very soft cotton,
It was only a dream that ended,

She was by my side all this while,
Dreaming calmly without a care,
Asleep with a beautiful smile,
Radiant like a flower so rare,

I kissed her whilst holding her,
Feeling her warmth was all I need,
I prayed we'll be this way forever,
Forever living in a dream indeed.

Emoetry - Distant Thoughts

2009-02-23T12:38:00.019+08:00

Its hard to forget,
Someone like you,
When our eyes met,
A dream came true,

In an unfamiliar place,
At an unexpected scene,
The smile on your face,
Made it all feel serene,

Your presence was ample,
To drown out the noise,
You made it seem simple,
All I heard was your voice,

You smiled and said "Hi",
I paused and stuttered,
What sounded like "Bye",
You stared and laughed,

Life paused for a moment,
As I gazed into your eyes,
I wanted it to be permanent,
I hate it when time flies,

As days turned into months,
Time spent with you fade,
Memories; moth eaten cloths,
Fragments left in a dark shade,

I still think of you now and again,
Wondering if you remember me,
The distance is driving me insane,
Its your smile I'm wishing to see,

I still hear you but its not easy,
Because the sound of your voice,
Its now just a distant memory,
Result of a poorly made choice,

If I had made a different move,
Would things be any different?
Would we be here and in love?
Or would I have left a dent?

You're still a distant thought,
But someday I'll draw you close,
You're the angel I sought,
The one I wouldn't want to lose.

Emoetry - Bliss In The Abyss

2009-02-07T06:12:00.003+08:00

Staring into the abyss,
Wishing to find peace,
Hoping to find bliss,
Praying for a release,

I find things unexpected,
Thoughts I wished were dead,
Situations that I hated,
Still locked in my aching head,

Memories long forgotten,
Dates and days I've hidden,
Feelings that have rotten,
Like the apples of Eden,

Why are they still here?
All these things that I fear,
In my visions they adhere,
All disgustingly crystal clear,

Yet all of them are precious,
Each one as darling as the other,
Each one marvellousy wondrous,
In my mind they will always linger,

Once more I stare into the abyss,
Knowing it is you that I miss,
Remembering every kiss,
You definitely are my abysmal bliss.

Emoetry - Lovely Skies

2009-01-07T17:23:00.014+08:00

Have you noticed from afar,
How a star looks like a crystal jar,
But it'll still never been on par,
As the sparkle in your lover's eyes,
Or the gleam as you say goodbye,
Or how a glance makes you fly,

Have you ever clearly seen,
A blue moon where you've been,
And how it makes you feel serene,
Just like when your lover smiles,
The whole world just freezes awhile,
It stays with you for a million miles,

Have you ever wanted to feel,
Clouds that were so soft so real,
Yet looking at them feels so surreal,
Its like feeling your lover's skin,
Their touch makes your head spin,
Its a dream you've wished to be in,

Have you ever silently listened,
To the raindrops as it poured,
Leaving your soul relaxed,
Its as if your lover is laughing,
They show us the purpose of living,
To find our way and stop wondering,

Have you ever tried tasting,
Snowflakes when it was snowing,
You still do it even when its freezing,
Will it remind you of your lover's lips,
And do you remember every kiss,
I'm sure its something you truly miss,

Have you ever wondered,
How the dark clouds disappeared,
And a rainbow magically appeared,
Its because they do it out of love,
Our lovers sent from up above,
In our lives they are wove.

Emoetry - Fine & Breathing Letdown

2009-01-06T11:35:00.008+08:00

There is a singer,
Whom I admire,
His songs make me unwind,
His words tend to linger,
Like an ever burning fire,
In the depths of my mind,

So here are a few lines,
From albums new and old,
Each one brilliant as the other,
That I've changed to rhymes,
With it my story will unfold,
And keep you entertained forever,

When I wake in the morning,
I thank God that I'm living,
I want to blow into pieces,
And conquer new places,
I want more than just okay,
Why can't it be like this everyday?

When I’m up with the sunrise,
Your beauty is always a surprise,
I want more than just blue skies,
I need to stare into your hazel eyes,
I want more than just okay,
It is; as beside you I get to lay,

When I'm lit with the sunshine,
I know I'm more than fine,
I want more than just a good time,
And I will chronicle them in a rhyme,
I want more than just okay,
Because to you I get to say,

That I'm learning to breathe,
You've pulled me out of my sheathe,
I'm learning to crawl,
You've healed me after every brawl,
I'm finding that You,
With everything you do,

And You alone can break my fall,
You've been with me through it all,
I'm living again, awake and alive,
Into your beautiful soul I wish to dive,
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies,
You presence tends to ease my sighs,

It was a beautiful letdown,
Into the gutter I was thrown,
When I crashed and burned,
To stop my cries you returned,
When I found myself alone; unknown and hurt,
You found ways to mend my heart,

The day I knew,
The day I truly grew,
That all the riches this world had to offer me,
As rich as I may tend to be,
Would never do,
As all I ever needed was you,

When You found me here,
I was constantly leaving in fear,
Yeah, for once in a rare blue moon,
I've received my boon,
I see everything clear,
As you've wiped away my tears,

I'll be a beautiful letdown,
No longer will I frown,
That's what I'll forever be,
As you've given life back to me,
And though it may cost my soul,
Which no longer has a gaping hole,
I'll sing for free,
Your beauty the world has to see.

Emoetry - Anything For Everything

2009-01-06T02:22:00.006+08:00

If I could do anything,
Just anything at all,
It would be this li'l something,
That you couldn't buy at a mall,

This something is from the heart,
That you'll keep in your soul,
Forever; even when we're apart,
Even when I'm not there to hold,

Its something that you can find,
Even when life keeps you down,
And when you need to unwind,
When in a troubled sea you drown,

What would I be able to do?
To keep you out of the blue,
I need you to be true,
No wait; I don't want a clue,

Whenever we're together,
It feels as time slows to halt,
I wish it'll stay this way forever,
While we dance an endless waltz,

Whenever I catch a glimpse,
Of your magnificent beauty,
Its like watching a lunar eclipse,
My heart tends to stop its duty,

But its no longer about me,
Or how I want things to be,
I just want you to see,
That I want you to be free,

So keep that angelic smile,
And that shine in your eyes,
Even when we say our goodbyes,
And not see each other for awhile,

Just smile everyday,
As I'm watching over you faraway,
For as on this green grass I lay,
My feelings for you will never sway,

But please keep this promise,
After seeing all you need to see,
And being who you need to be,
Please come back to me.

Emoetry - Song Of My Soul

2009-01-04T01:13:00.001+08:00

If a song could describe how I feel,
Its got to be John Morrison's "You Give Me Something",
Because these feelings could be nothing,
But I'm willing to try and make them real,

I'm sitting where we were yesterday,
Where I had to keep my feelings at bay,
I miss your laughter and smile,
Just thinking of you makes my heart run wild,

As Jon Foreman sings "On Fire",
Thats exactly how I feel when I'm with you,
I hope you're feeling the same way too,
In me I'm hiding a deeply burning desire,

I'm still sitting where we were yesterday,
Where we shared a drink,
There are a million things I wish I could say,
But for now I'll just do it in ink,

David Cook now does his rendition of "Music of the Night",
What he sings is so true; you do make my soul take flight,
If only you could read this poem that I write,
About this feeling thats eating me for the inside like a termite,

The train comes to a screeching stop,
As I sip on my diluted fizzy pop,
Wishing to see you stepping down on the platform,
But the truth is you're still back in your dorm,

Finally Toryn Green starts in his husky voice,
"Leave The Memories Alone" drowns out the noise,
Thats exactly how I want things to be,
In my mind; nothing but the memories of you and me,

I left that place with a heavy heart,
Wishing to relive everything that transpired,
To me; You are God's greatest work of art,
Its you that'll keep me forever inspired.

Emoetry - Short & Sweet

2009-01-03T23:08:00.002+08:00

Here's a question,
Given a chance,
Given a solution,
What would you change?

If I were you,
I wouldn't change a thing,
Or everything I had to do,
You'd find the answer surprising,

Why? As I'm glad I met you,
Yes, you; the girl who took a nap,
(While you were a bit drunk)on my lap,
This may seem funny but its true,

I've enjoyed the time we spent,
Albeit its been only talking,
You are heaven sent,
Its hard when you're not smiling,

So whatever it is; don't frown,
Just remember this foolish clown,
I'll make your sorrows drown,
Turning your frown upside down.

Emoetry - Rainy Days

2009-01-03T18:04:00.002+08:00

I love it when it rains,
The sound calms my mind,
The drops cleanses my sins,
And I leave my fears behind,

I love how it refreshes life,
How it makes everything new,
It helps when troubles are rife,
And when pleasures are few,

I love how it quenches thirst,
When my throat is dry,
It never makes things worst,
It just makes troubles slip by,

I love it when its raining,
Because it reminds me of you,
And how you keep me living,
With every little thing you do,

When its a drizzle,
Its like your calm demeanor,
Each drop like a gem that dazzles,
Which is why I make you smile more,

When it gets heavier,
Its like our every argument,
Yet I'll wipe away your every tear,
I try to make your smile permanent,

What I really love about a storm,
Its how I can keep you warm,
To embrace you in my arms,
To keep you from being forlorn,

That's why I pray,
For the rain to never go away,
Because I get to lay,
Next to you and say,

Thank you for being here,
To take away my fears,
Stay with me my dear,
In my ever raining sphere.

Emoetry - 4 A.M.

2009-01-03T04:10:00.002+08:00

Its 4 in the morning,
I should be sleeping,
Awake in the dreaming,
But something's lacking,

The sandman has visited,
More than a bag he wasted,
A sandcastle was created,
He left utterly frustrated,

As my eyes were still bright,
Like the stars and the moon,
Which lit the sky at night,
But the sun would come soon,

I tossed and turned in bed,
Pillows moved; blanket flew,
I felt sweat from my head,
It certainly wasn't morning dew,

I lay back once more,
Trying to finally slumber,
I left my mind to wonder,
Through every thought I tore,

That's when I finally saw,
You; Oh graceful angel,
A beauty without any flaws,
Magnificent in every angle,

I remember your pretty smile,
It sent shivers down my spine,
It was you I needed all this while,
To make me feel fine,

You were all I saw in my dreams,
That night in my sleep so deep,
Your silhouette will always gleam,
In my thoughts when I sleep.

Emoetry - Losing "It"

2008-12-10T19:47:00.003+08:00

Where has it all gone?
Where is my inspiration?
Has it left my every bone?
Poetry is no longer in motion,

Every rhyme feels awkward,
Even wrong words seem to rhyme,
Right words leave my mind unheard,
I need to write something sublime,

But the world has turned gray,
No longer in brilliant technicolor,
Life is now a sickening decay,
Devoid of its splendor,

Everyday is undeniably chaotic,
Everyone is frustratingly frantic,
Life is leaving me hectic,
And in a constant state of panic,

I wish I could find it once more,
The will to write; to inspire,
To stop boredom from its core,
To write a poem which I admire,

Are you lost my dear friend?
Please find your way back home,
Stay in my mind till time ends,
With you I'll write a poetic tome.

Emoetry - 17 Days

2008-10-12T19:32:00.006+08:00

I need to know,
Are you missing me?
As I'm missing your glow,
Like the sun rising from the sea,

I need to ask,
Are you thinking about me?
Thoughts of you are all I see,
Daily from dawn till dusk,

I need to find out,
Are you dreaming of me?
As you're all I dream about,
Dreams about you set me free,

Seventeen days away from you,
Seems like eternity,
Seventeen days without you,
Has driven me close to insanity,

I feel your presence,
But it doesn't help much,
I hate your absence,
I need you here to hold and touch,

I need to see your beautiful face,
Especially with that sweet smile,
You've made me found my place,
Will you let me stay awhile?

I love staring into your hazel eyes,
Drowning in them feels like heaven,
You given me clear blue skies,
Will you speak those words unspoken?

I wish to feel your skin on mine,
Feeling the warmth of your body,
Its warmer than burning pine,
Will you hold on to me tightly?

I quiver when I kiss your lips,
They're soft and sweet,
You've got me at your finger tips,
Will you say I swept you off your feet?

I miss the scent of your skin,
And how it entices my senses,
You've cleansed me of every sin,
Will you still love me when time passes?

Seventeen days are flying by,
I'm missing you more everyday,
There's no need to ask why,
As I've fallen for you in every way,

Seventeen days are killing me,
I'm wondering how to tell you this,
I'm dying but I don't want you to see,
As being with you would be my final wish,

I'm always thinking of you,
I'll always be with you,
I'll be waiting for you,
I love you.

Emoetry - Missing Enigma of Love

2008-08-24T13:22:00.009+08:00

The moon and stars shine,
Brightly,
The rain starts falling,
Heavily,
I watch you sleeping,
Peacefully,
I smile knowing you're mine,
Happily,

I move the hair covering your face,
Slowly,
I kiss your sweet lips,
Gently,
It feels like I've found my place,
Finally,
Your presence is what I miss,
Easily,

I whisper I love you,
Softly,
I hold onto your hand,
Tightly,
I love how you do everything,
Gracefully,
I'll be with you till the end,
Surely,

I leave the room,
Silently,
Not wanting to wake you,
Abruptly,
You saved me from my doom,
Unexpectedly,
I've never felt a love so true,
Wholeheartedly,

I make my way to the roof,
Anxiously,
I'm soaking wet due to the rain,
Refreshingly,
Your love is proof,
Undeniably,
That a heart can heal from pain,
Magically,

I fell asleep,
Rapidly,
The rain still falls,
Heavily,
It hides my tears as I weep,
Unknowingly,
I didn't hear your calls,
Worriedly,

You found me,
Knowingly,
You hugged me,
Lovingly,
You woke me,
Gently,
You kissed me,
Tenderly,

We sat there,
Stoically,
Looking at the sky,
Dreamily,
Which was now clear,
Wondrously,
Time just flew by,
Rapidly,

You let out a yawn,
Sleepily,
You laid your head on my shoulder,
Lazily,
I wanted to stay till dawn,
Wishfully,
I wanted to stay by your side forever,
Truthfully,

I carried you back to bed,
Grudgingly,
I had to leave as dawn came,
Sadly,
I kissed your forehead,
Yearningly,
My love for you will stay the same,
Definitely,

I'm sorry I left you alone,
Lonely,
I'm sorry I didn't say goodbye,
Apologetically,
I'm sorry I left things undone,
Messily,
I'm sorry I had to die,
Please forgive me.

Emoetry - Vicious Cycle

2008-08-09T22:14:00.002+08:00

You found me,
Heard my cries,
You freed me,
Cutting the ties,
You healed me,
From these lies,
You kissed me,
I felt the skies,
You hugged me,
Stopped my sighs,
You carried me,
Helping me rise,
You left me,
My soul dies,
You killed me,
No more tries,

I needed you,
Not anymore,
I wanted you,
Feelings of yore,
I carried you,
Made me sore,
I loved you,
Ancient lore,
I despise you,
To the core,
I hate you,
From every pore,
I killed you,
With a gore,
I buried you,
Your heart I tore.

Emoetry - Night Fright

2008-08-07T22:02:00.001+08:00

I've been losing sleep lately,
When I close my eyes,
I see a vision of you clearly,
The vision reminds me of your lies,

Thoughts of you used to put me to sleep,
Now they just haunt my dreams,
Thoughts of you now seep,
Like toxic into beautiful streams,

These thoughts used to take away my pain,
Away from my heart and my mind,
Now the pain starts all over again,
Its like you just hit "Rewind",

The dream has turned into a nightmare,
Where you plucked out my heart,
And crushed it without a care,
Then threw it at the wall like a dart,

Paranoid and schizophrenic,
I awaken with cold sweat while shaking,
I don't know where I'm heading,
Depression Lane Or Village Psychotic,

You left me frail and broken,
It feels like I've lost my soul,
So many things left unspoken,
It was you that kept me whole,

Memories of you crowd my every thought,
Causing my emotions to go haywire,
I'd feel better if I were set on fire,
I'm sure it'll stop the pain you brought,

I become claustrophobic in my room,
The walls close in on me,
Spikes replace where the walls used to be,
Closing in; sealing my fate with doom,

I finally know the feeling of being used,
This nightmare leaves me dazed and confused,
Its now hard for me to go to bed,
Quite frankly; I'd rather wake up dead.

Emoetry - Straight Edged Rage

2008-08-07T21:59:00.001+08:00

Its time I break out from this cage,
I won't hold back this bestial rage,
Its time I lived life on the edge,
I'm taking a leap off this ledge,
Its adrenaline I don't need a gauge,
I'm tearing up the rules page by page,

I'm done sitting by the sideline,
I've had enough of letting time flyby,
I'm about to explode like a land mine,
No longer do rules or regulations apply,
I ain't going to pay my dues or fine,
I'll leave this all behind high and dry,

I've had enough of crawling in this pit,
I've had enough of taking all this shit,
No longer will I stand while others sit,
I'll tear these restrains apart bit by bit,
I'll be on life like an assassin on a hit,
Suicide is something I wouldn't commit,

I don't live for spirits or beers,
I don't need any substances,
I have other ways of killing my fears,
And strengthening my defences,
No longer will I shed bloody tears,
I'll leap over these walls and fences,

I'm like a freight train,
Crashing through every obstacle,
I no longer feel pain,
I'm close to being maniacle,
I've everything to lose nothing to gain,
But I'm still not wishing for a miracle,

I've been living a lie,
It was never the best thing for me,
I could have just laid down and die,
But that was never meant to be,
I just found a way to untie,
These leashes; now I'm breaking free,

My body may be aching,
My wounds might still be bleeding,
It feels like I'll never stop falling,
But my scars are healing,
I embrace this hated feeling,
Nothing will stop my heart from beating,

Here's what I'm trying to say,
I'm finally doing things my way,
Nothing will make me sway,
I was bound to explode some day,
So its time for the world to pay,
I'm letting the beast out to play.

Emoetry - Poetically Me

2008-08-06T22:51:00.006+08:00

I'm thinking its about time,
For me to discover who I am,
To me life is poetry in motion,
Thats why I live for every moment,
I relate everything with a rhyme,
And when I don't I feel like a dam,
Just waiting for a major explosion,
Which causes poetic bombardment,

I am straight edged,
Finding happiness in my own way,
It may seem boring,
But at least I know I'm happy,
People call me deranged,
But I don't care about what they say,
Its best to just keep ignoring,
Living my life without getting angry,

Things happen for a reason,
Good or bad it still happens,
Just got to find the answers,
Of why it happened to you,
There's a way to cure poison,
And soften metal that hardens,
Picking myself up from the gutters,
I found what I must do,

My mind was on a stalemate,
I was living in a world with no light,
But I now I see things clearly,
And know the reasons I was made,
I may not be in a euphoric state,
But at least I'm thinking straight,
Fighting to make my dreams a reality,
I'm not ready let them fade,

I'm working hard to fight for it,
I'm studying every little detail,
I'm appreciating every second,
I'm carving my name in stone,
I may be a poetic, straight-edge misfit,
You may think I'll fail,
But I am one of a kind,
And I am 2nd to none.

Emoetry - Sadistic Rage

2008-07-22T23:26:00.001+08:00

I told you I need my own space,
Yeah, I may be a baby face,
But I won't hesitate to punch you in your face,
My fists are deadlier than a gladiator's mace,
I'm going to enjoy putting you in your place,
Six feet under ending your rat race,

You're the person I love to hate,
The day I kill you will be our greatest date,
If I could I'd smash you with a metal plate,
If you thought your trip to hell was late,
I'm the grim reaper; here to seal your fate,
So yeah; Howdy mate!

I'm right here, face me if you dare,
I know I'm your favourite nightmare,
All your fears have been laid bare,
You're the easiest worm to scare,
Tell your friends; see if I a care,
They'll be afraid of me just with a glare,

There's no where for you to run now,
I'm going to slaughter you like a cow,
I have my methods; you don't want to know how,
Time for you to squeal like a dying sow,
You should have just kowtow,
When you're dead; I'll take a bow.

Emoetry - Dwindling Art

2008-07-22T08:39:00.003+08:00

As I stood by that smelly "creek"
With 3 little versions of me,
The angel; devil and freak,
Thinking whats it going to be,

Just then; a beautiful girl passes us,
Hand in hand with her man,
Faced filled with pimpled pus,
I certainly wasn't a big fan,

Me: That dude is a lout,
Devil: Who has a face like a trout,
Angel: He ain't too bad; just a tad stout,
Freak: WHEE! Look at that platypus pout!

Such is the state of young love,
Anything does and can happen,
Just confess your love with a fake verve,
And whip out your secret weapon,

Girls like guys with cars,
They just like being whisked someone far,
Does it matter if he locks you up behind bars?
Wow! Thats a nice new scar,

Girls also like guys with fat wallets,
And an endless flow of money,
Its cool if he hits her with mallets,
With retail therapy everyday is sweet as honey,

Some girls like guys who are out of sight,
But is it worth all those stupid fights?
And how he screams at you with all his might?
Guys like these should be considered blights,

Then comes a guy with a great big smile,
It seems like he did some "coke" as long as a mile,
He also seems to get "it" more than once in awhile,
But deep down I can tell his bitter as bile,

Next to him is a walking skeleton,
Who acts posh like she's from London,
She drinks Earl Grey; never Lipton,
She even speaks like Paris Hilton,

Me: Look at that bean sprout,
Devil: How is she able to walk about?
Angel: Maybe she's trying to figure a look out,
Freak: Oh gosh! She's so thin I think I just got gout,

Guys like perfect complexion and no zits,
Not to mention round asses and big tits,
But whats with the fake personality?
Dude, please come back to reality,

Some guys treat girls like dogs,
I sure they've got a few rusty cogs,
Or probably they're just dumb as logs,
We should dissect them to study like frogs,

Some guys even like to "share",
Their herpes which isn't rare,
They do "it" like a wild hare,
Do "it" with them if you dare,

I guess its no longer 1965,
I'm watching a recording not live,
But I'm still not buying all that jive,
I'll patiently wait for true love to arrive,

Call me a classic romantic,
Its true I'm an old school fanatic,
You could even say I'm a new age heretic,
I like my life simple and not dramatic,

What happened to chemistry?
What happened to caring about personality?
Is finding love no longer an artistry?
Something has gone wrong with young society.

Emoetry - Inspiration Solution

2008-07-20T20:23:00.001+08:00

Here I am telling myself,
"I've have to write",
This itch is worse than a mosquito bite,
I search for inspirations in my bookshelf,

Nothing helps me think,
I get discouraged in a blink,
It feels as if my mind is about to shrink,
I just scribble away wasting ink,

I turned on my stereo,
Munched on an "Oreo",
Still nothing comes to mind,
Where is the inspiration I'm dying to find?

How could I have lost it?
Did it escape when I popped a zit?
If it doesn't return I'm going to throw a fit,
Darn it I'm feeling like a nitwit,

I throw my pen & paper aside,
Then start searching deep inside,
For that little "Me" whose gone to hide,
Right now all I want is to take it for a ride,

As I close my eyes,
I find all sorts of coloured dyes,
I then remember a special file,
Finding it in a neatly stacked pile,

Its where I keep memories,
Memories made with someone,
Someone who enhances my abilities,
My abilities to finish all thats undone,

I find my little inspiration,
Sleeping between photos of her,
He knew she was the only solution,
He knew she makes my emotions stir,

I closed the file silently,
And left that storage room happily,
I finish another poem and read it proudly,
She read it and hugged me lovingly,

She's something I pray to never lose,
As she's the drug I choose to abuse,
She's my addiction; my muse,
She lights my poetic fuse.

Emoetry - Dream Phase

2008-07-20T14:42:00.000+08:00

I had a dream about you and I,
When it ended I let out a long sigh,
I remembered everything clearly,
Now I'm wishing it happens in reality,

We were laying on the ground,
It was dusk and no one else could be found,
I was holding you tightly in my arms,
Not letting you go as you're my lucky charm,

I stared into your beautiful eyes,
Whispering into your ear sweet nothings and lovable lies,
We shared a quick kiss,
I still feel your soft and tender lips,

You played with my hair with your soft fingers,
That great scent of your skin still lingers,
Even when I'm awake I still feel your heat,
And every time I do my heart skips a beat,

I moved the silky hair that covered your face,
I then drew you closer in my embrace,
And kissed you once more,
You were so beautiful in that dress you wore,

In the end of that dream,
You stood up and walked towards that setting orb,
Your svelte figure embraced in the sun's gentle beam,
The beauty of your silhouette made my heart throb,

I woke up with the vision of you,
I would've been happier had it been true,
To be able to witness the great things you do,
But I can't; thats why I feel blue,

I had a dream about you and I,
When it ended I let out a long sigh,
I remembered everything clearly,
I'm going to make it happen in reality.

Emoetry - Your Soothing Presence

2008-07-20T14:41:00.001+08:00

Its been a while,
Since I've had this feeling,
Where someone makes my heart stop beating,
With just a sweet smile,
Its been so long,
Since someone calmed me down,
She's like a princess minus the gown,
Its no wonder my feelings for her are strong,

I feel her presence,
Although she's far,
Without her; my heart is an open scar,
Which will never heal in her absence,
I love her presence,
When she's around me,
She soothes me like the sweet scent of incense,
Or how nectar entices a bee,

Its hard to keep these feelings deep within,
When its her i want to look at the stars with,
And lay on the grass discussing every silly little myth,
Letting her go would be an unforgivable sin,
Its so hard to keep these feelings deep inside,
Its even harder to get her out of my mind,
She's the answer I've been dying to find,
But for now this is something I have to hide,

I'll patiently wait for the day,
Where she'll finally be mine,
So I could say,
My life is finally more than fine,
No matter how long it may take,
No matter what sacrifices I have to make,
I'll wait for her,
This is one dream nothing can deter.

Emoetry - One For The Angels

2008-07-12T16:04:00.006+08:00

As my wings break,
I start falling from grace,
I knew my life was at stake,
As I fell at such a fast pace,

I hit the ground hard,
Yet I left unscathed,
I should have broken as if I were a card,
Yet in the acid rain I bathed,

The rain burned,
The moon was red,
Like the blood I bled,
Death was something I yearned,

Alive and breathing,
Angry and seething,
Still searching for the meaning,
Of why I was still living,

I walked towards a lake,
With the souls of the hopeless,
One step was all I had to take,
To join the horde of lifeless,

I moved closer to the rippling surface,
My reflection was unrecognizable,
I spit at it in utter disgrace,
My life has been a total fable,

Fabricated to the point,
Where it felt so real,
But it felt like a sleazy strip joint,
Like a card game with a rotten deal,

I lost all glimmer of hope,
But as I was about to take that final step,
Someone held me from an invisible rope,
Stopping my self made trap,

Blurry eyed I see something magnificent,
They had majestic wings,
It was hard to ignore that they were present,
These angelic beings,

They held me up facing the cerulean ceiling,
With the warm sunshine heating my cold soul,
My darkest night turned into a beautiful morning,
They removed from my life everything that was foul,

They restore my strength,
When I feel that I've lost it all,
They help me stand tall,
When I'm out of breath,

They give me a peaceful life,
Whenever troubles are rife,
They do their best,
To help me pass every little test,

I now know that I'm never alone,
As I've always had them around,
Sometimes we think they're gone,
But in truth they're easily found,

What do they know?
These people that claim angels are dead,
That all this is just in my head,
That its a fairytale I follow,

They may try to break what I believe,
But I know that angels live,
They just take on different roles,
From friends to family they fill up these little holes,

That make our lives empty,
That make living dreary,
Which sometimes makes us go crazy,
And ends up putting us in a frenzy,

To my closest of friends,
I say thank you for all you've done,
You've given my life colour in every tone,
Thank you for straightening all the bends,

To my family members,
I would like to express my gratitude,
And I will never be able to find a substitute,
That keeps my soul burning like embers,

You're all to me a necessary substance,
I could never live with your absence,
Wherever I go I feel your presence,
You're all to me God's greatest presents.

Emoetry - Childish Dreams

2008-07-06T16:01:00.005+08:00

In the backseat of a car,
A child sits quietly,
The wheels spin slowly over tar,
He stares out the window dreamily,

In the front his parents are busy,
To even pay him any attention,
In their minds its just the thought of money,
Or finding a complicated business solution,

He sighs while looking on the outside,
Buses rumbling, people walking, bikes zooming,
A yawn escapes his mouth; its a really slow ride,
A few minutes later the child is dreaming,

He never had this dream before,
It was a dream in a myriad of colors,
He was sure this dream was not a bore,
Unlike the other dreams he abhors,

The dream was populated,
With his friends and favorite heroes,
It was also filled with toys he wanted,
This dream definitely killed his woes,

A certain "Big Blue",
Took him for a flight up in the sky,
If only this were all true,
To have the ability to fly,

Next up was a ride on a "Speeder bike",
With a very famous "Skywalker",
This was 1 dream he didn't just like,
He wished he'd be able to stay in it forever,

They raced to the edge of hill,
Where they stood to watch the twin suns set,
What a sight it was; remember this dream he will,
A dog appeared; she was once his pet,

Seeing her he breaks down in tears,
Hugging her and patting her the usual way,
She was his only friend who helped fight his fears,
He loved her so much and missed her everyday,

Master and pet then strolled in a meadow,
Lush greenery and all sorts of pretty flowers,
There was a stream that had an unending flow,
Bears were fishing for their suppers,

Wearing flannel shirts and overalls,
They looked funny; sort of like hillbillies,
One greeted him and clumsily stumbles and falls,
A loud splash followed scaring away the guppies,

Entering the woods across the stream,
He skips and he sings,
The trees do not stop the sunbeam,
From shining through the surroundings,

He finds an opening,
He lies down facing the sky laden with clouds,
He falls asleep under skies that are comforting,
And the silence of the forest without any sounds,

As he was about to fall into a deep sleep,
He heard his mother calling his name,
He had to tell her; this was a dream he couldn't keep,
This dream changed his life; it was never the same,

The child has grown,
But he still visits this dream,
This dream calms his feelings of being down,
To him its much better than "Cookies and Cream",

It may be childish,
But it keeps him alive,
Its where he stores his every wish,
Its this dream that makes him thrive.

Emoetry - Ode to Thee

2008-07-04T23:11:00.008+08:00

They both walked hand in hand,
Believing that they'd never have to let go,
They both walked to a road with a bend,
It had a fork dividing their lives; they knew what the had to do,

They both let go of each other,
Looking into each other's teary eyes,
They didn't want to walk any further,
It was too soon for them to say their goodbyes,

This was the hardest part of it all,
Even worst than the time they fought,
This was nothing close to the art painting on the wall,
By this time it was solace that they sought,

Memories of being in each other's arms,
Memories of hugging each other to sleep at night,
Memories of mornings where they'd turn off each other's alarms,
Memories of every unnecessary fight,

They looked ahead at the road that seemed never ending,
They looked back but the road that brought them there disappeared,
They walked the road ahead of them without reminiscing,
They tried to throw away every thought and feeling they ever feared,

Although her heart was heavy,
She moved on gracefully through that road,
He on the contrary,
Decided to turn around he had to lighten his load,

He wasn't ready for what lied ahead,
He needed to finish all that he had to accomplish,
Not regretting the choice he made,
Walking back to the place he had made that wish,

The wish of them being together forever,
This time he made the wish completely different,
He wished her all the best in his prayer,
She was like an angel that God sent,

She picked him up when he fell,
She made him laugh when he was sad,
She made him felt loved and free of hell,
All in all...she made him glad,

This little poem is to you,
For everything that you've done for me,
After everything thats happened I still love you,
Sadly things just turned out how we didn't want it to be,

You've brought me joy,
You've changed the way I lived,
You've even made me feel like a little boy,
You've even made me start to believe,

That there is a purpose to go on,
Because you made everything seem fine,
That this is the life I wouldn't have to abandon,
I will always be happy that I once called you mine,

I was broken into pieces,
And you mended my broken soul,
The time I've spent with you was the greatest,
A part of my soul is what you'll always hold,

This is an ode to thee,
Who filled my life with glee,
This is an ode to thee,
Who gave me back pieces of me,

This is an ode to thee,
Who in darkness helped me see,
This is an ode to thee,
Who will forever be a part of me.

Emoetry - A Hunger for Anger

2008-07-03T22:10:00.004+08:00

As he stares at the mirror,
He finds another person staring back at him,
His body burns up with an intense fervor,
Who could this person be? He couldn't tell as the lights were dim,

He screams at his reflection that seems to tear itself apart,
The man in the mirror mutilates himself with a sick smile,
An hour is how long it seemed to take for the demon to reach into its heart,
It wasn't human of course it looked beyond vile,

With valves and veins that ran through it over and under,
Although out of its body it was still pumping,
It wasn't long till he notice the heart had eyes that stared at him in hunger,
Thunder roared and the dimly lighted room was lit by lightning,

Outside it started to pour intensely,
Inside he started to feel like he was going to faint,
His hands were wet they were both bleeding profusely,
Looking at the floor and the wall it looked like someone had just used it as paint,

He couldn't remember how he cut himself,
Trouble is he didn't even feel the pain of it all,
In an instant he ran to search for bandages on the top shelf,
The floor was slippery with his own blood that causes him to fall,

Knocking his head on the window sill,
He cracked his forehead wide open,
At this moment he panicked but still fought with a warrior's will,
Thoughts of how the thread of his life were woven,

An untimely death was what he didn't expect,
It all began with his freakishly twisted reflection,
Very sure that it had a deal with the devil or a pact,
Sitting up against the wall he faced the demonic vision,

Eyes red as rubies lit in its sockets,
The heart was jumping up and down ready to strike,
It had mouths more than any pants had pockets,
It's teeth were sharper than a guardsman's pike,

The mirror shattered into a million splinters,
Shattering with such force it was worse compared to a road accident,
Even after a few painstaking moments the pain still lingers,
At his moment of death he wondered what all this meant,

In a daze and utter state of confusion he could see,
The demon and its heart walking onto the glass,
The situation became worse now that they're free,
The closer they were the larger they grew in mass,

The stench of the demon was unbearable as it stood close,
He could clearly see now that it looked nothing like in books,
It then bent down to where he was and its tail tighten on his neck like a hose,
Gasping for air he grabbed on the demon's arm it's skin felt like hooks,

A smile so sickening made it's way onto the demonic figure's face,
Letting out a guttural laugh it stuck it's finger's into his chest cavity,
Ripping open his chest with ease like it was made of lace,
For the 1st time in his life he knew how it felt to be in agony,

To make matters worse the demonic heart drew near,
Saliva thick and laden around it's mouths,
The air was thick with the stench of his fear,
How was he to overcome this situation that kept going South,

The truth is he couldn't and he never had a chance,
Just as his vision faded he saw the heart jump into his chest,
The moment the searing pain started he went into a traumatic trance,
All he could do was just try his best....

In bed he woke up with cold sweat and he was shivering,
It was only dream yet it felt so real,
Even the pain felt so real that he almost started crying,
He even felt like going for a meal,

Deciding to change his sweat soaked shirt,
Taking it off and it was then that he found the unexpected,
He saw that his chest was still ripped and instantly knew why he hurt,
He stood staring at the mirror once again and almost fainted,

The demon was no longer there,
Instead it was just his reflection in sight,
At that moment details of his dreams were laid bare,
In reality he had lost the fight.....

Emoetry - Walking Dead

2008-07-02T21:09:00.006+08:00

A friend recently asked me "How's life & everything?",
I told her its like a distorted dream close to a nightmare,
She replied "You've gotta be bluffing",
I said nothing and just gave her a glare,

I then said "I think its something I don't have right now",
Continuing this I said "I just don't know what it could be",
All she said was "Don't look at me, how should I know?",
So we just sat there our faces had no signs of glee,

Once again I broke the silence,
With the words "I'm like a rusty cog in a clock",
I continue "I think there is no need for my existence",
Ending what I had to said with "Life is such a fucking cock",

She laughed while exhaling the smoke from her fag,
After she stopped her piercing laughter thats always on a high pitch,
She said "Yeah, I know how life could be a drag",
After a puff she continues "Thats why sometimes its also known to be a bitch",

Hearing what she said I added "But she's a beautiful one",
Its totally the opposite of what I've said earlier,
She snorted and I added "But I swear God left it half-done",
Getting off the sidewalk I say "Fuck this, I need a beer",

We walked down the sidewalk,
Both trying to look for a way to avoid being hit by idiotic cars,
It was totally silent as we both didn't want to talk,
I turned around to talk to her but that was when I fell and was facing the stars,

She rushed to me but I could hear her laughter,
While helping me up she said "Thats the smartest thing you've done today",
I could've killed her but I was actually laughing and not in anger,
Whilst dusting myself off I said "Thanks, lets go get something to eat, I'll pay",

We found this little place to eat down a dark and dirty alley,
We both ordered a plate of noodles and a drink,
The food was sickening so we stood and left the money,
It wasn't long after we left that I started to think,

How life just left me out on the gutter,
I tried to say something but it never came,
She looked at me like I'm some kind of nutter,
It was good I said nothing because it would have been something lame,

We walked for hours without a word,
We were close to where we needed to go,
Anything that we say now would just be unheard,
Both of us decided to leave it so,

I gave her a hug and said "Well, its been fun and swell",
Smiling she said "Yeah, I can't believe its just seven",
She turned around to the bright light and returned to heaven,
I walked down an alley...back into the pits of hell.

Emoetry - Initiation

2008-06-29T01:53:00.003+08:00

As my friends are all moving up,
I sit by these lonely steps looking down,
Will I always be that little lost pup?
Who runs to find his place in this big town?

Chasing dreams have never been easy,
Especially when I never had 1 to begin with,
Trying to figure myself out just makes me queasy,
It seems like the things I want to do only exist in a myth,

I look up at the night sky and make a wish on a star,
I wish for a dream that I wish to experience,
But a wish only makes that dream drift afar,
The truth is only I can make this dream commence,

No longer will I sit on the bench of waiting,
No longer will I wait for the bus of hope,
As I will redeem myself from this failing,
And show everyone that I can cope,

I can cope with the hardship,
I will make it through the problems that arrive,
Rising to a challenge will just be another road trip,
It is time that I breathe life into my dreams and watch them grow live,

No longer will I cause disappointment,
No longer will I make myself feel helpless,
The truth is my heart is a strong foundation of a monument,
I will no longer be the stone thats useless,

I will change my life for the better,
Not just mine but my family's too,
I shall heed the words of my father,
When I put my mind to it; there's nothing that I can't do.

Emoetry - Dad = Dud

2008-06-19T23:24:00.003+08:00

Dear dad, what do you see?
When you look at me?
Have I become what you've wanted me to be?
Has everything you ever wished for in a son manifested,
Somehow; I feel as though I'm not what you've expected,
Somehow; It feels as though you're disappointed.

There are time when I despise you,
Yet I've been raised to love you,
But everything I've done is never right for you,
You've never told me anything thats why I never have a clue,
You just start screaming at me out of the blue,
Your harsh words; stick in my mind as if it were glue.

Where is the man I go to for guidance?
Where is the man I look for whose advice is always in abundance?
Where is the man who I thought shined with a great radiance?
The more pain you put me through the more I'll stand in defiance,
The more anger I have for you makes me feel like you're a hindrance,
The more hostility I have for you will 1 day make me deem you a nuisance.

I've always looked up to you as an idol proudly,
Yet you've always shunned me aside coldly,
I've wished for the day where you'd talk to me calmly,
Without the angry tone of voice and hostility.
Without you always saying that I'm faulty,
Without you constantly putting me in a place of disability.

I know its not my place to change who you are,
The times we've spent as father & son are close to rare,
Its not that I do not care,
I've just never wanted to cause you pain,
Thats why I've hardly complain,
But I've got to let all this hate & anger out of my brain.

I do not want to hate my father,
I do not want to live in a state of anger,
I know walking that road leads to danger,
But what can I do if this continues to linger,
Is the only way of stopping this to sunder?
By drawing our relationship further and further?

These are the problems I wish I could solve,
These feelings of anger and hate I wish could dissolve,
If only my heart and mind was a valve,
I would be able to release these feelings with ease,
And stop feeling like I'm stuck with a disease,
And find a way for all these hate to cease.

To my father I apologize and say sorry,
I know I've always made you angry,
And I've done everything to make you worry,
Having a son like me does seem like a curse,
I'm sure all I do is make things worse,
So for now, all I'll do is get out of your way till the day I'm in a hearse.

Emoetry - Lost Hope

2006-12-04T23:31:00.000+08:00

Am I a mistake?
Is my existence here a big fake?
I've broken everything I've tried to make,
I've realized life isn't a piece of cake,
I've taken all the chances I could take,
But its all still one big horrible mistake,

As memories playback in my brain,
It all just brings back burning pain,
I keep missing the same God damned train,
Therefore I am forced to walk in the rain,
I feel that there is no purpose to remain;
Alive here on God's so called green plain,

As the city night light's shine brightly,
My heart bleeds profusely,
From wounds that dwell in my heart happily,
Scars are forming in my black heart daily,
I just go through life as if I have no eyes; Blindly,
Nothing can ever save me; Even if its something holy,

Problems & troubles fill my day,
Others try to hurt me in every way,
No one cares about how I feel or what I say,
My inner demons are always here to play,
No matter how hard I try; They'll always be here to stay,
Breaking me bit by bit; Just like a pot of clay,

Dark clouds follow me even though the day is clear,
Everyday, screams & laughter at me is all I hear,
I've looked frantically for a silver lining thats near,
So I have a sanctuary to hide from my fear,
Praying for my life thats not so dear,
Crying till my eyes flow with a bloody tear,

I ask myself; Where has my guardian angel gone?
The truth is, I never had one,
I ask myself; Where have my friends gone?
The truth is; I'm always alone,
I ask myself; Where has my luck gone?
The truth is; I always had none,
I ask myself; Where has my soul gone?
The truth is; It left me on day one,
I ask myself; Where has my hope gone?
The truth is; I hung up on it just like a phone,
Finally, I ask myself; Where has my life gone?
The truth is; It has been destroyed just like the ozone.